THANK YOU SO MUCH to wonderful friends, family, colleagues and parishioners for enormously kind concern and good wishes. For the past two weeks my situation hasn’t changed very much at all. The chest infection makes breathing wheezy and sometimes difficult and I’m permanently flat-out exhausted. I’m also being very well cared for, as usual, and ordinary expressions of gratitude are not enough to cover that fact.
Perhaps I’d be more worried than I am if I hadn’t heard of several other people in a similar situation. I think that antibiotics are slowly beginning to do their work, hope to see my GP again on Friday, and that I’ll begin to pick up sometime soon. Ordinary daily life and contacts have had to be put on hold, frustratingly, especially where illness in others, or baptisms, weddings and funerals are concerned. The dozens of daily meetings, phone calls, emails and blog contacts that are normally as natural as breathing itself are all currently beyond me to any great degree, but I’m reading the odd chapter, being fed by the wonderful psalmody and poetry that my head and heart are full of, and going to sleep in between! And, actually, there’s more time than usual for thinking about people, for a never-ending supply of rich memories, and for prayer. Fr Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditations on the theme of Letting Go have seemed especially apposite this week.
My elder daughter Rachel will marry Ally a month from today so I’m focusing on being fit as a fiddle by then. Meanwhile, family and friends know that silence and stillness are friends to me, never enemies, so I’m not unduly agitated, indeed grateful, really, for opportunity to mull things over a bit and take stock – a couple of spoons-full of my own medicine. In fact I’m hoping to be quietly present for our monthly Monday Meditation next week.
Oddly, for someone who isn’t ordinarily very sporty or athletic, I’ve been much moved by the odd glimpse I’ve had of the Olympics – something to do with the huge commitment, dedication, perseverance and – I suppose – love that are required in order to participate fully. Tears well up in me – for both the winners and the “losers”.
Again, thank you so much for thoughts and prayers. They – and those who offer them – are very greatly appreciated. I’m grateful, too, for Apple’s wonderful new OS Mountain Lion – enabling me to dictate this note. xxx